Last week, for no particular reason, was difficult for me. I found myself struggling with the sin and shame of my past, and couldn't figure out why I didn't feel Jesus. I knew he was right there next to me, but I felt like I couldn't quite reach him. And because I know Jesus would never leave or make himself hidden, I must of let him go somewhere along the way - I just didn't know where.
Then this weekend I went to a woman's conference in Raleigh and the first thing we did was worship Jesus. I'm telling you guys, it was like magic - the floodgates to heaven were once again opened to me. And as I was thinking about it, I realized I hadn't worshiped Jesus, alone or otherwise, in over a week. No wonder I couldn't feel him! I had intentionally given up one of my most precious times with my Savior.
The following Sunday I heard a sermon on Psalm 13, which I feel perfectly illuminates the importance of worship, despite (and especially because of) our circumstances or volatile emotions. The verse written by David reads,
"How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? Must I wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me?"
Look on me and answer, O Lord my God. Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death.; my enemy will say, "I have overcome him," and my foes will rejoice when I fall."
"But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the Lord, for he has been good to me."
The first two verses of this Psalm display an anguish in David's life, but he ends the song by saying he will sing and rejoice unto the Lord. David is talking about worship! Worshiping the Lord is a powerful and potent tool for dispelling our fears and concern because it positions our focus on Jesus. The circumstances don't change, but our outlook turns in to an eternal one, and from that viewpoint things never look so bleak. After all, Jesus has already won over death!
Have a blessed, worship-filled week!
P.S. Isn't this shirt so fun? It was a little too expensive for me at first, so I found a few loose threads (it was basically nothing) and when I asked the cashier she willingly gave me a discount! I did the same thing a few days ago at Banana Republic. So PSA - it is not difficult to get discounts on clothing if you ask, even just for minor things!